Don’t grieve for me, for now I’m free

I’m following the path God laid for me.

I took His hand when I heard Him call,

I turned my back and left it all.

I could not stay another day,

To laugh, to love, to work or play.

Tasks left undone must stay that way,

I found that place at the close of the day.

If my parting has left a void,

Then fill it with remembered joy.

A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss,

Ah yes, these things, I too, will miss.

Be not burdened with times of sorrow,

I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.

My life’s been full, I savoured much,

Good friends, good times, a loved one’s touch.

Perhaps my time seemed all too brief,

Don’t lengthen it now with undue grief.

Lift up your heart and share with me,

God wanted me now, He set me free.

The truth is, I don’t want you to give up.

I see something in you, an innate talent, an unrealized passion. I sense sincerity and beauty in everything you produce. You have unlimited potential in what you’re about to give up, but I don’t have any right to stop you.

It’s difficult for me to accept, I can only imagine how much you’re hurting right now but I have to respect your decision.

I wish I had the courage to say all of this to you.

During the very few idle moments I get to enjoy, my mind gently drifts to you. Whenever I recall of the things you’ve done for me (no matter how simple they may be), I sense a familiar feeling of happiness crawling back.

I could fall for you any second now, but I’m trying so hard not to. What’s sad is that, every time I smile at the thought of you, I remind myself that I could be the only one believing in this thing.

I don’t want to hope and end up disappointed again.

I want to trust you, have faith in all the romantic shizznits in this world, and to stop being so afraid of getting hurt again.

Lots and lots of feelings this week, and it’s not even PMS (unless P now stands for Post, haha).

Last night, I found myself crying. No, the cause wasn’t anything big, just a bunch of petty things piling up, causing me to feel extremely vulnerable and hurt.

When I’ve finally chose to let all of it go and just drift away to sleep, my little sister opened my door and turned on the lights. I was pretending to be sound asleep when she approached my bed with a big note that says, “Free Hugs”. At that moment, I felt blessed. I’m grateful for having my sisters because they always, always, take care of me. Even if I don’t tell them any of my problems or worries, they know when to come to my aid. I don’t even have to drop a word, they would hug me and everything would be alright.

Right now, all I want to do is to make them feel just as loved :)